Rachel Leviss is able to inform her full facet of the story in the case of Scandoval — simply not on Season 11 of Vanderpump Guidelines. And for followers dissatisfied she received’t be returning to the present, you apparently can blame Ariana Madix for that!
Throughout a sneak peek of her new podcast Rachel Goes Rogue, the 29-year-old actuality star opened up about her resolution to not come again to Vanderpump Guidelines. Earlier than the entire dishonest scandal, wanting again, Rachel stated her first “mistake” was returning for Season 10!
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Let’s rewind. The previous pageant contestant ended her engagement to fellow co-star James Kennedy in December 2021 — then spent all of Season 10 the next yr watching him along with his new girlfriend, Ally Lewber. Witnessing the couple collectively so quickly after they broke up, Rachel shared on the podcast, actually “damage” her:
“I already made a mistake by returning to Season 10. Wanting again at that season, I used to be at my lowest of lows. Filming Vanderpump Guidelines after breaking off an engagement with James, that was my first mistake, as a result of I ought to’ve taken the time to heal and discover a therapist. And I did the proper factor by having a no-contact coverage with James, however after we’re working collectively and filming collectively and he’s flaunting his new girlfriend that he met three weeks after I ended the engagement, that damage.”
We guess she’s saying she drowned her sorrows within the cool waters of Tom Sandoval? Nicely, not simply him… Rachel went on to elucidate that the breakup put her in a foul “psychological house,” and she or he started to drink much more throughout Season 10:
“There have been so many questions operating via my thoughts like: Did he ever actually love me? How is it doable to like somebody after which recover from them so shortly? I used to be consuming a ton Season 10. And this isn’t an excuse. I’m simply, level clean, I used to be not in a superb psychological house. In understanding that, I’m studying from my errors.”
Hmm. When it got here time to determine if she would return to VPR for Season 11, Rachel says she realized she couldn’t put Ariana via the identical “ache” she went via working with James and Ally. So she refused to hitch the solid on the present once more:
“Wanting again and seeing how a lot ache I used to be in interacting with James on digicam and seeing his new girlfriend. I may solely think about the ache I might trigger by filming [Season 11] in the identical atmosphere with Ariana.”
Noting how the affair with Sandoval was “an enormous betrayal,” Rachel stated she knew it might be “painful” for Ariana to nonetheless work together with your former pal. To not point out having to witness her interacting with “the individual that you liked a lot and also you thought they cherished you simply as a lot as you liked them.” Ultimately, the ex-SUR waitress thought “it might simply be so catastrophic”:
“I didn’t wish to try this to Ariana. I didn’t wish to put her in that place.”
Nicely, she by no means would have probably been in “that place” in the event you hadn’t betrayed her by secretly hooking up together with her longtime boyfriend for months within the first place. Simply saying! This compassion she stumbled throughout is an efficient factor now, however she missed the off-ramp onto the excessive highway a number of months again.
So what concerning the future? Season 12? Nope. When Rachel says she’s completed with Vanderpump Guidelines, she means it! Ever since deciding to “utterly take away” herself from the present, Rachel hasn’t heard from any of her former solid members. Nonetheless, she isn’t upset about it! The tv character identified that she doesn’t “essentially wish to hear from any of them.” However the one one that has reached out to her, as all of us witnessed? Sandoval.
Rachel addressed the general public birthday message he left on her Instagram again in September. On the time, she wasn’t too thrilled about seeing her ex-lover attain out to her, a lot in order that she blocked him on the platform. When speaking concerning the state of affairs, Rachel revealed Sandy was not in a position to attain out to her over textual content since she blocked him the second she bought out of remedy on the psychological well being facility. Nonetheless, she famous he may have — and may have — despatched her a DM as a substitute of writing a public remark:
“I’ve been fascinated about that so much, and I believe, for him, as a result of I’m simply attempting to place myself in his sneakers, was he doing this to be spiteful, or was he doing this to be like, ‘I need the most effective for you,’ It looks as if it may go both manner.”
And Rachel has zero regrets about blocking him now! Whereas it was “a tough course of” to chop him out of her life, the Bravolebrity stated she feels so significantly better about her resolution now. Rachel even shared that “taking a step again and eradicating myself from the chaos has allowed me to realize some readability — really numerous readability — on the state of affairs,” explaining:
“The story I might inform myself about our relationship that we had, it appeared so particular and it appeared so actual, however once you take a look at the chilly, onerous info and write them down on a bit of paper and see all of these purple flags clear as day, that can break you out of your denial. As soon as I used to be damaged out of denial and realized how manipulative he’s. I couldn’t put myself in a state of affairs the place, at my most weak state, it might in all probability get me again to these outdated patterns that I’m attempting to interrupt free from.”
She continued:
“I look again at Season 10, oh God, as a very tough season to look at again, as a result of I’m simply cringing at all the issues and all the moments that they caught on digicam. It’s actually embarrassing. However I see a woman that’s going via ache and doesn’t have the proper instruments to deal with it, and she or he’s coping in the best way that she seems like her wants are being met by somebody who’s giving her adoration and a spotlight. I actually didn’t prioritize my friendships after I bought concerned with Tom, and I remorse that so much.”
She “didn’t prioritize” her friendships? Nicely, that’s a technique of placing it, we guess…
Nonetheless, we’ve at hand it to somebody who can take a look at their previous errors, see them for what they’re, and transfer ahead in development. Rachel is clearly rising, as is clear by her resolution to show down extra actuality TV fame in change for therapeutic.
Viewers could hate not seeing Rachel on the following season of VPR. However it appears like we’re nonetheless in for a drama-filled season with out her! Reactions to the podcast teaser? Sound OFF within the feedback beneath.
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