Ryan Edwards Reveals His Drug Overdose Was Intentional! Oh No…

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The reunion for Teen Mother: The Subsequent Chapter received tremendous heavy.

As it’s possible you’ll know, a lot of Season 2 of the MTV actuality collection targeted on Maci Bookout’s ex and child daddy Ryan Edwards’ private and authorized struggles. Clearly the low level was Ryan’s overdose again in April, which resulted within the actuality star falling unconscious in his automotive. He was hospitalized and ultimately arrested on a managed substance cost and a DUI when he awakened. The 35-year-old was despatched to rehab earlier this yr and has been in remedy since then.

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Ryan clearly couldn’t go to New York Metropolis for the reunion, which aired on Wednesday. So Dr. Drew Pinsky flew to Tennessee to talk with him about his troubles this season. And the fact star’s confession throughout his one-on-one interview is completely heartbreaking. When requested about whether or not he was achieved with remedy, Ryan stated:

“I might hope to assume so, I don’t wish to do it anymore. I feel my largest downside was myself, not pondering I had an issue. I lied to myself.”

The tv character is at the moment 5 months sober — which is the longest time he’s ever been sober after remedy. Wow. Ryan shared:

“After I went to remedy [before], I knew as quickly as I received house I used to be gonna do what I used to be gonna do. I’ve utilized in jail however not this go round. That’s huge, it takes a variety of work.”

Though his youngsters are a giant purpose why he desires to stay sober, he additionally received trustworthy and admitted he doesn’t “consider that’s sufficient to maintain” him that approach. Ryan identified lots of people he is aware of nonetheless use medicine, so he tries to not “put myself round it,” frequently going to AA and NA conferences as an alternative. Throughout filming, he was staying at a midway home, working with a sponsor, and about to start out going by way of the steps. However as for what his future appears to be like like as soon as he leaves the midway home? Ryan famous:

“It’s regardless of the court docket says, I’m at their mercy proper now.”

Then, issues took an much more somber flip within the dialog. Dr. Drew went on to ask if he ever considered hurting himself earlier than. Ryan revealed what nobody knew — his overdose was really intentional:

“Yeah. The final time I used and overdosed, that was on function.”

He was attempting to harm himself with the overdose? Was he attempting to not get up??

So, so unhappy…

Noting the confession was “heavy,” the reunion host questioned if he was “disillusioned” when he awakened from the hospital afterward. Ryan stated he “requested that woman why she saved me.” Oof. On the time, the dad defined that the “melancholy, habit” and “drama” along with his estranged spouse, Mackenzie, and police grew to become an excessive amount of for him and led to the overdose.

Fortunately it seems like Ryan is in a greater place. Shifting ahead, he desires to speak along with his son Bentley Edwards about every part that’s occurred – however solely till he’s at a stage the place “everybody is aware of that I’m doing okay.” Ryan additionally desires to be a greater father, keep sober, and return to his job as a mechanic.

Hopefully, Ryan continues to do nicely on this new chapter of his life for his personal sake. Reactions, Perezcious readers? Tell us within the feedback.

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